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DECEMBER NIGHT: What I Have to Find Does Really Exist…
Within walking distance from the shores of the Atlantic, the Bronx lies under a blanket of snow like my native village on the Dobrudja steppe, restrained only by the furies of the Black Sea. Battling the gusts blowing from Alaska, I’m seeking – as I was then, over there, withstanding the Crivets that kept rushing in from the Siberia to snatch me – this Christmas night, amongst snowdrifts and a pitch-black snowstorm, the spot above, where the guiding star has come to a standstill. The star has risen on high, I know it has, I’m walking with eyes riveted onto the sky, under a snowfall muffling Manhattan, snowflakes instead of stars, peering for the light, gasping for air, stranded now, as I was then, surrounded by snowdrifts, groping down the deserted streets, with dogs only barking, as they used to over there, not knowing either purpose or reason, carrying about my own storm like the Magi their offerings, licking the icicles under my brow, moving forward with the confidence that what I have to find does really exist and shall be revealed to me.
Translated from the Romanian by Heathrow O’Hare (New York Elegies, Koja Press, 2008)

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